BUT...

“In the night will the silver stars glitter,

In my heart will the butterflies flutter,

In the breeze will I hear your song,

In my dreams will you float along,

In your eyes will my heaven stretch afar,

BUT I wont ever know who you are….”

My granny

One never knows the value of his eyes unless he goes blind.

I realized this lesson after the loss of my dear granny.
everything seems like a dream, the reason why  I still am not able to believe that she has actually gone…

We called our granny; “ammamma” (which means grandma in our language).

she was always serene like a clear cloudless sky. she mostly wore only white clothes and always had vibhuthi( the sacred ash) On her forehead.

you can always find her room tidy and neat anytime you visit her. one felt a sense of tranquility in her presence.

she had a handsome walking stick with which we cousins used to playJ.

I still remember how cute her wrinkled soft cheeks looked when she smiled!

Ludo and snake and ladder were her favourite games which she loved to play in the evenings and she was an expert in themJ

She was not very strict but she had a special aura that arrested respect form everyone. She was a wonderful teacher, mother and granny

I had only lived about five years with her in my childhood.but those were  five precious years of my life.

I used to listened to her childhood stories and experiences, the hardships she faced as a child, with great wonder. At her time,people never knew the value of education,but still my grandma became the fist one to get educated and become a teacher in her family. she was a woman of substance and nothing less than real hard work did earn her the good name In the society.

Even today people around the place in my hometown recogonize we cousins as her grand children. Its with great amazement that I still wonder how she managed to bring her six children up, even when she was an employed mother, that too at that time…..

Sometimes god can be cruel and that was why we couldn’t rescue my granny from the jaws of cancer. It was too late, but she fought…

It was a painful sight to see her during her last days.

 i still remember the day when she struggled to open her eyes as a reply to our calls. Through her cheeks, which had then lost all its cuteness, I saw tears flowing down

May be the pain was horrendous for her, or may be she knew that, soon she wouldn’t be able to open her eyes again and  see us again…

Ah how I wished I were big, I weren’t  a kid at that time! To spend all my time with her…taking care of her, to do all I could to rescue her,to make her the sweet dear granny again…

Today she is in the safe hands of god but the truth is she is safe in my heart. It has been five years since her demise and even today I do feel her presence always… I find her in the people who know to love, I find her in the ones who correct me ….she lives within me , She is the good in me….
We miss you dear granny….

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i wish elisa all the  best wishes for the journal "THE GOLDEN SKY"  about her son zeke.
Dear Elisa, God calls back first,the ones whom he loves the most,.... 

Why i love Sirius Black...

"You don't understand!" whined Pettigrew, "He would have killed me, Sirius!"

"THEN YOU SHOULD HAVE DIED!" roared Black. "DIED RATHER THAN BETRAY YOUR FRIENDS, AS WE WOULD HAVE DONE FOR YOU!"

You remember these impressive lines don’t you??? Well I know it’s a rather bad question, because how can any hp fan ever forget these lines?J

When I first read these lines, it was then I fell in love with THE ONE AND ONLY Sirius black. 

‘Sirius Black’, a deceptive name I would say, because he ain’t actually serious or dark like the feeling the name will evoke, at first.

Sirius! oh words about him are endless-the man to successfully escape from the prison of Azkaban, a brave determined, Rebellious  wizard who never gave into his family’s wishes, who never became a Death Eater, who  never gave up what he believed in, who managed to stay himself in spite of the hard ships and injustice he faced and above all the most loyal, gem of a friend…

““Its been 14 years and still not a day goes by , that I don’t miss your dad” When Sirius says these words to harry,  am sure a poignant smile must have flashed on at least some of your faces


The relationship between harry and Sirius is something very  beautiful, which is another beautiful reason why I like Sirius. He is a perfect god father who seems to exactly know what harry feels and how to console him.  Unlike the other concerned elders of Harry (exactly, like the elders around usJ),who  tend to (deliberately) forget the factor ”teenage” when it comes to matters concerning him, Sirius seem to  know that Harry’s  feelings, the despair, the curiosity, the anger are all completely justifiable, as he  does not forget the fact that once he too had been a teenager. Exactly the reason why he suggests harry to indulge in adventures, like his father who loved nothing but escapades in his teens.

Sirius had always wanted to protect those whom he loved. Even when Sirius  was a wanted man, even with dementors around Hogwarts, when  Harry was in trouble, he  was desperate to help Harry. He was willing to risk,not his life exactly, something more than that, because a dementor’s kiss is worse than death.

I couldn’t stop crying like a small baby and my contempt for bellatrix lestrange was at its peak  when I found that Sirius was killed.(The most touching part is, when harry finds the Christmas gift ,which sirius had given him,after his death and   finds this note “use it if you need me alright?”And  he calls his  dead god father’s name again and  looking into the mirror, hoping he would turn up, oh but all in vain!:(

His want to protect his loved ones,is what had  killed him.He met a his death  while fighting to protect Harry. A brave death indeed  and a fitting, right end for him but still…. he should have lived……SIRIUS BLACKL

So that’s why I seriously love Sirius black:)

Now tell me, which HP character do you like the most??

 P.S. Did you know that “Sirius” is the name given to the brightest star in the sky. The star is also known as dog star, which corresponds to Sirius’ animagus, a dog.

J.K Rowling simply rocks!:)

Do we need to convince others?

Sometimes when you have valid reasons for why a particular decision or say idea of yours is right, surprisingly others reasons for why your idea or actions are wrong ,too will seem logical. of course, if you listen to others with a “whatever-this –fool-says-is –absolutely-insane ” kind of  attitude or  with a “I know better than you” grin,  then you will never realize this.

At this time, you will find that your reasons for why you are right and others reasons for why you are wrong will nullify each others effect!

Have you ever felt like that?  Yes, exactly like the neutralization reaction between an acid and a base or

Like how the work done will be zero when forces are equal and oppositeJ

And in most of the cases when your inability to convince others ,frustrate you, that helplessness may come out as tears, anger and soon there may begin  a petty squabble and you may lose control and your opposer may end up with a punch on his face or you may lose a couple of your teeth,etc etc J

But listen,

If you truly believe that what you did is right, and if you can justify your actions, not necessarily with words, you need not do that mental gymnastics to find out reasons to justify your actions.

Don’t you worry mate,don’t let their contemptuousness affect you,
 because there does not arise a necessity  to convince others, as long as you are sure that with your decisions, you did not cause any harm to anybody in any sense J